Monday, July 31, 2006 @ 9:53 PM

i was on the verge of dying i tell u. i mean like seriously, i sincerely don't want to be in a situation 2 years ago. i don't want that to happen. yes, things may be different now, ppl might get more matured. but heck, im sort of traumatized. i dont want history to repeat itself. maybe that guy was a jerk n maybe he isnt. but the possibilty of him ignoring me would be very high. fazzie, i never had confidence in myself, u should noe that. and yeh, the chances are very low. im not saying that i dont have a chance tho, but look at it, its a fact. an obvious fact really, that i will never be able to be in a place that i want to be. prolly yes, if i ever try. but looking at the kind of guy he is.. hah. it'll be a miracle if it realli happens. and miracles never ever happen, not in my life at least. and just now, was pure rubbish.

sometimes, things arent just meant to be told. but sometimes, wen ppl just noe u like at the back of their palms, they seem to noe everything. and thats u syaf. urgh. lol. but i seriously hope hes not that kind tho. i'll kill myself if he can read my mind. realli. but then again, not everyone can do that except for my bestie. so no worries. but, everyone seem to noe that he noes. im dead so dead. but how does he noes. shit la. i want to keep it right down in me, but its kinda impossible aye.

aniwae. did i ever mention that im gg to start work? wee* im gon work like on sats so yipee. had training last saturdae afta cross country. it was fun. u noe me and fatin. the wireless thingy is pretty cool. so yah. the worst thing ever is to have training in school half uni. freak sia. i mean ppl were like looking la. and ppl were asking endlessly. and knowing that MI is still considered new, i had to explain like 5 thousand times? we are still the camwhores. nth can change that i gez. ouh and gez wat. the hot GR is still workin. omg. hahaha. i should realli ask mahandran bout him. lol

omg. it took me quite a while to upload the pixes. so, i'll just post it wen the time comes. that will be the next post duh. =))