Friday, August 25, 2006 @ 8:44 PM

i still cant believe that i told them. n i knew she would kill me, with all the truths that i refuse to accept. wat can i say, i live in DENIAL. its not that i dont want to wake up and smell reality. its just that, im scared, scared to face the truth. TRUTH HURTS. and besides, im traumatized by all that have happenned. living in denaial gives me a sense of satisfaction. its gives me a choice to how i want it to turn out. forget it. im too late. n hes an arse for leaving too early. im missing you. cant u tell?

anihow. nothing intersting has happened except fiz and fazzie bullying me. blardy shitters. they were asses can. so hendra n myself were quickly trying to finish up our accounts assignment while fiz, fazzie and massha are already packing. ok fine. i was the one who said that im hungry and cudnt be bothered for acc. hah. but they could wait!! since hendra found the ans and all. but no. they were singing songs asking me to get out of the class. calling my name. scolding me. laughing at me for being extra hyper and yehh. becoz of them i...
1. "broke" kristen eraser not the normal ones. but yeh.
2. dropped kristen's pencil case
3. tried using kristen stapler over n over again and apparently at last he told me it was spoiled.
4. was being very clumsy.
5. searched frantically for my paper which fell off the chair.
6. ran ard class to find a use-able stapler.
7. was laughed at by hendra.
8. got hendra "scolded" me for being over excited
9. went out of class w/o my econs file
10. embarassed myself infront of hendra,kristen n rahman n practically everyone.
ok. that was already bad enough u noe. but they just had to add a lil spice in it. while in the canteen,i just had to blame them for making me feel embarassed. n they freakily misunderstood it. thanks guys. they were saying that i fancy rahman. n they had to tell fahmi. n fahmi had to tell hendra. n both of them had to tell khidir. and the three of them had to tell rahman. baskets. but yeh. hes cool bout it, hopefully. one priceless thing was the conversation wit fahmi. ok so. my back was facing him.
fahmi: atika, dah buat econs essay
fizah: alah lah. merajuk pulak.
fahmi: atikkaaa... dah buat belum?
{everyone laughed}
fahmi: atikaaa.. dah buat econs tak?
atika: diam ah bising ah
fahmi: aku tau kau tk suke die la. jgn marah la.
HAHAHAHA. nonsensical crap
i hate them for doin that. hmph.
n no. i dont fancy rahman.

got a cert for participatin in jcdc. (:

i hate that mangkuk. bias bitch.

i still havent complete my irp stuff. lol