finally i can sleep in peace. like after knowing why he wouldnt be online and stuff. like atlast! yeaynessss. more late night chats of nothing. sounds retarded, but nah, i like it that way. the friendship we have, is totally different. its like we share so much but at the end of the day, know nothing about each other. its complicated, really. but i LOVE it wen he gets all so excited and anxious to tell me what hapenned. god the feeling is super priceless okay.
call me crazy but yeh ,
he can make me go from ): to (((((((((((((((((:
its like, hes always,ALWAYS on time. everytime i talk to my gfs about it, the next second, his name appears. GOD. stop it okaaay.
me: hes like online la, wah lao!and hes not talking to me. i fuckin miss him okay.
fazzie : alah. maybe he thinks ur busy thats y hes acting busy.
me: mati ah. wat nonsense, im always busy, and he noes that.
fazzie : u busy also bored.
me : okay. he talked to me ((((((((((:
god, he still makes me have those butterflies in my stomach. everytime im getting close to it, something surely has to spoil it. god. frustrating to the max. and and, he loves making me go speechless. like god. irritating eh.
and so apparently firah thinks im in love. wth. im not la bugger.
anywaay. i think this would be the last post till mid november. its like, i do not have time for myself even. there are too many things to do in such a small amt of time given. everything is suddenly happenning all at once. i hate it wen it becomes like this. first pw which is starting to irritate the hell out of me, then come math A'levels and ake performances which requires night practices. like stop it already.
i think pw is starting to get on the nerves of not only me but everyone else. and i dun noe if this is a good thing or not, but the fact that mr cheng pushed the deadline earlier for almost everything is starting to give me a headache, a real bad one. lets see, WR deadline is 16 oct. and that totally means 13 and 14 of oct is gone, no meet ups can be done, nothing can be done on this three days, okay maybe a little but still. its wasted just like that. why? coz of hari raya. and u expect me to skip raya for pw? yeh in a gazillion years.
next math A's which falls on nov 2. yeh like a few more weeks left. and everytime i come back frm sch, time would prolly be spent on the lappie doing WR. and after that im tooo tired to even practise math. this cannot be happenning. this shit is scary. god! so what if there is 15 periods of math a week, i still find it not enough, but seriously, theres no time. and im super tired, very tired.
angklung performances are SUPER TOO NEAR TO EXAM DATES! god MOE event somemore. dun know how to be considerate is it? wah lao. lets see. 1st moe event performance, nov 3. YES! november 3, a day after math paper. and theres rehearsal on nov 2, right after math and my oral presentation for PW is on the 6th. that means, november 3 and november 2 are wasted again! GOD. i cannot afford to waste time. okay, maybe i can live with that. but what made it worse is that i'll be having night practices almost every monday and fri. like WAT!!? night are meant to be spent on pw and math! and now what?
next, standard chartered marathon. the need to train is killing me! no time okay. i mean imagine after training, u'll be too tired to even do anything else.
everything is killing me slowly.
but i cant do anything can i?
hah.
WELCOME TO SINGAPORE'S EDUCATION (:
bitch.
and it doesnt help wen im falling sick. my voice is totally different. my throat hurts. my nose is like a running tap. having slight fever.
mom: " go home and rest, really. "
me: " WAT?? i cant afford to skip math. no! and PW, too many things to be done. no i'll stay in sch.i'll be fine"
okay. maybe i shall stop complaining, but wth, everyone else is.
anyway, after ake practise on fri, the malay girls except mai and nadiah went out to buka together. we are totally crazy okay. maybe coz we gone mad after wanting to know if we got promoted.
us: mr pow, DO NOT do this to us. are we promoted?
mr pow: im not doing anything.. hahahaha. i cant say anything.
us: cher, oh c'on we're like friends alr.
mr pow: HAHA. no we're not.
(any teacher who walks pass)
teacher: (in her mind prolly. heh. ) " hmmm. does these girls seem familiar" *smileees*
mr pow: hahaha! its nice to see u guys in this state.
us: mr pow! how could you! SERIOUSLY, are we?
mr pow: hahahaha. i dun noe.
(then the principal walked pass)
mr tan : haha. are this girls bullying you mr pow?
us : we just want to know. not bullying.
mr tan: im sure u do want to noe.
mr pow: oh come on, i'll walk u guys down.
THIS SUCKS.
im scared, i swear.
had a terrible nightmare.
i woke up today, terrified. frantically calling out your name.
and came to realise u're in china.
eventhough u're not alwaes here.
i still love you.