Saturday, May 30, 2009 @ 1:19 PM

okay this is a bugger.

note to self: at the end of this post or rather rant, i need to decide whether im withdrawing from NUS or pursuing PFM.

yes im psyched to go NUS and all,
actually i have already even accepted NUS.
even after knowing that NIE is offering me a place in the BA in edu. (after receiving a text at freaking 1 am!)
WELL THATS BECOZ,
i ASSUMED that the interviewers werent moved by what i said, and they still gave me a place in malay specialisation.
which i am very RELUCTANT to pursue.

dad asked me to wait for a lil while more,
but nup, i accepted NUS coz afterall MOE is taking its own sweet time to give me the letter.
i kinda noe im in the malay specialisation shit.
since i went for that interview.

so its 30 MAY,
and i received a letter from MOE
saying.
"i am selected for the Bachelor of Arts (Education) (primary) programme"
which basically means NO MALAY SPECIALISATION.

and YES,
by 1 JUNE also,
i had to accept NUS and send in a letter for my student card.

so i was in a dilemma wasnt i?
as if i would have time to accept NUS if i were to wait for MOE.

i have alwaes been wanting to do project and facilities management, yes ppl keep saying " bla bla bla its building shit bla bla"
yes it is,
but i guess, it really is time now to know where im heading to and not just doing things on the surface.
i wana specialise in smth.
and plus i can double major in management from sch of biz.
yes okay, double major is crazy, heh.
and plus, if i were to pursue PFM, im basically a student of FREAKING NUS!
i mean, come on, its NUS for eff's sake!
and plus, NUS have got many opportunities for me ryte? (insecure much?)
like the billions of camp, and the hostel (which my dad has been bugging me abt it), the studnt exchange prgm, the third language thingy, the attachment with capitaland! ( I AM SO BUGGING DORIS TAN FOR CAPITALAND'S HR NO. FOR INTERNSHIP), sorry aliff ((:
okay and i know going to NUS is not all so rosy, i mean, i know i have to work my ass off!
and yes im prepared to do that, i guess. heh
(doubting as i look at the unemployed-korean drama junkie-part time tutor-waking up late-doing absolutely nth me)
okay the exchange prgm is off the hook, i have to not get a single C at all in my entire life in NUS.
but noeing me, the slacky me, the heck care me. yeah right.

then WE HAVE NIE!
argh!
teaching teaching teaching.
the satisfaction that u can get after successfully teaching someone, is really overwhelming.
i have to agree with that.
and the security of having a job after i freaking graduate! i mean, even if i get into NUS, it DOESNT GUARANTEE ME AN EFFING JOB!
yes the stress of a teacher is hecticly crazy,
but i dun noe? which job doesnt have the word STRESS all around it? PFFT.
and plus, i heard ppl keep saying NIE is pretty slack and all as compared to the other courses lah.
i mean come on, after 8 EFFING MONTHS OF SLACKING, i wonder how my brain is gg to respond to the WORK LOAD NUS/NIE will have for me.
now im starting to feel kesian for the guys. TSK.
i mean, i have alwaes wanted to teach, but yes i keep doubting myself, coz ive nvr seen myself literally teaching (tutoring doesnt count) and i dun noe if thats my forte.
and if it aint, then the effing 4 YEAR BOND will be a killer, ryte?

okay fine, even if i were to go NUS, once i graduate i actually can enrol myself in NIE, to teach.
yeah.
but.
FICKLE MUCH?
another two years of studying?

AND ASRIDA IF URE READING THIS,
I CAN SO IMAGINE U LAUGHING URE ASS OFF.
and saying " 1480!"

okay maybe this NIE thing looks EXTRA attractive becoz of that.
but i will be shit independent.
but gg in NIE coz of that is somewhat WRONG, i mean, its for the wrong reasons.

EFF!

OKAY U NOE WHAT. time check: 1.30

i think its really NUS for me. time check 1.53
hah that took a short while to get to a conclusion.
right

lets just hope its for the best (((((:
i am not regretting this.
am i?

oh man.

this better be worth my precious 4 years